As the great Michael Bergen (Ryan Reynolds), the king of not worrying, once explained: “You know, Que sera sera, no use crying over spilt milk, Hakuna matata. Pick your favorite.” Hakuna Matata may be my favorite, but that doesn’t mean it’s any easier to implement as a life philosophy. I am a big one for worrying, and that is definitely hindering me now and then.
Stuff I worry about: am I studying the right thing? Am I preparing well enough, in time? Am I looking around enough for future studies? Am I exhausting all the opportunities that are thrown at me here? Am I exploring them enough? Am I *really* sure everything is going to be fine?
And other questions: am I spending enough time with my friends? Am I not too hesitant when it comes to falling in love? Recognizing it? And how are you even supposed to recognize that? I was just watching Letters To Juliet on the TV, but – as hard as it is for me to admit this – life is not like a movie. We don’t get to consult a script if we’re lost. We can’t read ahead to the ending of a book and know that, whatever happens, everything will at least be sort of all right. We just blunder around and hope we don’t do too bad. I guess.
Don’t get me wrong. I am a very happy person, and I love what I do. I have some amazing friends, I suffer of insatiable wanderlust (and I always try to satisfy that anyway), I am taking amazing classes, I have a family that cares about me. But I still worry. We all do, of course. And sometimes we just need to get rid of all that doom and gloom in order to see the bright spots again. I hope you don’t mind me putting my doom and gloom out here. Doubting whether you’re doing the right thing, evaluating your decisions so far, for me it often confirms that yes: I am doing the right thing.
And I *will* be fine. It may take quite some work to get there, but hey: that’s also a part of life. We all have to live with that, and we will, and we can. “No worries, be happy” may not be my life philosophy, but I like to think that everything will somehow turn out the right way, if I make sure to stay true to myself. And I’ve managed that so far!